Wednesday, November 24, 2010

More Thinking Than Doing

I think a lot. I can't seem to stop. Often, I get so stuck thinking that I don't do what think about doing. For example, I want to bake something today, but I've spent the past hour trying to decide what I want to make instead of just doing it. The Kid will wake up from his nap soon, and I certainly won't be able to bake then. So, I've essentially wasted my time. I think part of the problem is that I'm so tired, I just don't want to move.

I read a lot about homesteading, cooking from scratch, simplifying, etc. and I want to do it all. But I don't. I reach for easy meals, still lust after material items (books and bags, mostly), and didn't prepare the ground for a garden like I wanted to. If I would have spent less time thinking and reading about it, and more time doing, I'd be on my way to the simple life I want.

I'm also worried because I don't have any classes for next summer. I wanted to teach at least one online course so that I'd have income, but the new Dept. Chair didn't give me anything. So, I'm not sure what I'm going to do. Ugh.

The Kid is starting to stir, so I'm going to throw in a load of laundry and prepare myself for playing and cuddling with him.

Monday, November 22, 2010

Over a month? Really?

Apparently, I haven't blogged since October 3rd. It really hasn't seemed that long ago to me, but I guess time has been cruising on by.

We're heading into one of my favorite times of year (Thanksgiving --> Christmas), but I'm not so excited about it this year. I think it's largely because I'm tired. Wiped. Exhausted. Frustrated.

The Boy refuses to sleep in his crib. He was fine in his bassinet, then his pack & play, but as soon as we tried the crib, he revolted. As I posted back in September, I haven't had the heart to let him cry it out (when I try, he cries for OVER AN HOUR and it breaks my heart), so we spend each night in the recliner. I know that this won't last forever, and that there will come a day when I will miss being able to cuddle with him, but...I miss my bed. I miss sleeping next to my husband (though I don't miss his snoring). I've decided that I'm going to keep things the way they are until the semester is over, and then devote my winter break to getting my son to sleep in his crib. I hope it works.

In other news, I've gone back to Weight Watchers. It's been almost a month, and I've lost about 5 pounds. I'm totally half-assing it, on-program some days and off-program on other days. My main problems are that I don't plan my days very well, and I'm so focused on taking care of everyone else that I forget to eat and end up overdoing it at night. Not good. I'm so tired of being overweight, though. I'd like to be healthy when I turn 40 in 5 years.

That's all for now. I have papers to grade while The Boy is at my sister's. Good times.