Wednesday, May 30, 2007


I really should be at the library right now, but this recliner is too comfy to leave. I thought about going to B&N...but I really should buy any non-thesis books until the thesis is finished. Which might be never.

I've been in college for 14 years. There have been many schools (I transferred a few times), a few majors (business, history, then English), but I never took a break. Not even over the summer, until this one. I was passionate about literature and scholarship, determined to get my PhD. I wanted the cushy professor's office with stacks of books everywhere. I wanted students to line up at my door to chat because I inspired them. I wanted to spend hours researching and writing journal articles.

Not anymore.

I want to be what I used to think sucked the life out of women -- a housewife. I want to cook, bake, clean, do laundry, raise our children, grow a garden, and wear an apron around the house.
I want a more peaceful life. I want the life my grandmother had. Not necessarily the nine children, though. But I would love a farm.

I just wish I could find enough oomph right now to just finish my thesis and graduate. Then I can be a housewife if that's still what I want.

Anyone have some spare oomph?